#121 It's a closure

Dari Jauh - Nabil

Tiada malam lena tidurku
hanya igauan mimpi yang pilu
kerna setiap kali ku pejamkan mata
ku hanya terlihat dirimu

mengapa aku masih menanti
harapan yang kian tidak pasti
walau ku sedar hakikatnya
kau takkan kembali di sisi

walau kau tidak perlukanku
aku tetap mendoakan kebahagianmu
tapi hanya satu yang ku pinta
izinkanku menyintaimu dari jauh

walau aku pernah menyatakan
yang ku telah lepaskan segala
hakikatnya hati kecilku masih menyinta
aku simpan saja perasaanku
menahan derita dalam rindu

Lovely song but hurt much to listen to :(

Honestly, 2010's closure doesn't really going well for me, worst ever.

I seriously does not know what's right or wrong or what I should or should not do.

I miss myself more now :'(

#120 It's a wrap

Hello ! Miss me ? (:

The interest on blogging fade away recently. Maybe I don't want people to know how I felt or maybe me myself does not have much time to recalling and write whatever that happened.

Yesterday was awesome. Accompany the guys to Pertama for boot hunting and watch late night movie in Mid Valley :)

Today, went for bag hunting which manage to grab 2 handbags. Buying new watch replacing my Swatch and lappy-hunting. The result;excellent :)

and ouh, did I mention that my boyfriend being so helpful this few busy bee days ? You're the best :)

meet my Casio Gold :)

and I've got stars in my room/dashboard (:

New Year will arrive in few days and I bet everyone already planned how to celebrate their new year and how they going to spend another year. Celebrating New Year is not my thing, never. I am more on planning what I am going to do or be in that one whole year. Been busy with study and business is another one reason why New Year should not be celebrate by me.

2010;

I will say that half of the year is disaster while of it awesome. I have pretty rough start early of the year and thanks to some sort of problem, everything does not seems right. Things changed when I am on my sem's break before my 2nd year in UKM :) Ignoring people who bring no benefits, care no more for people who not important and stick with real friends and family. What I love the most is the friendship and love that I own now and I hope it will stick that way for many years ahead.

So I do make some list on what to do or target in 2011 and this is some of it

-Eat well

-Exercise/Hit the gym once in awhile. Swimming should be done at least once a week

-Meet new great people

-Keep friendship and love strong

-Spend less on shopping; expensive food, branded clothes, etc

-Be more productive and effective

-Study smart, play hard

-Pray 5times a day

-Do more charity

-Be consistent and keep the positive energy higher

-Not being lazy ass

and nothing more I ever wanted other than stay out of trouble and no stupid silly immature problem with anybody.

HAPPY NEW YEAR and HAVE ANOTHER GREAT AWESOME BEST YEAR !

and yes, it a little late but never too late to wish my sister HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! You have been such a great sister. Have a blast year ! :) Sorry can't make it celebrating your birthday at home :(

You guys will never guess my sys' age right. Hihihi

Ouh btw, as all of us know, Suzuki Cup belong to us. Congrats Malaysian Team !

I better sleep early. Since yesterday, in this 48hours, I slept only 2hours.

Till then, do miss me and take care.

#119 Hiatus

Salam and Hello. A week without any new entry. Been busy with first week of class which so far just fine and not having lappy was the reason why. Still having problem registering for Workplace subject thou. Should get a new laptop as soon as possible. Geeeez -.-''

Should update before new year, wrapping out all what happened this year and jot down hope for 2011.

Year passed by very quickly. Should be more productive next year, definitely.

#118 Should be lucky or unlucky ?

So here I am in UKM already. Class has started since Monday. Geez, I am having problem registering subject and geezzzzzzzzzzz I just found out this morning that my lecturer does not count our group final project and as the result, most of us got C and D :( and that including me !

Nothing much. And ouh do vist my shop ! :)

#117 Movie marathon - Fair Game & Tron

Hello. This few days nothing much I've done.

Last night was awesome and today me, Aker, Govin and Anep having movie marathon and we watched Fair Game and Tron.

This movie actually based on true story back in 2003 about Valerie Plame and Joseph Wilson whom back then make a headlines everywhere especially in America about nuclear and stuff. Not a really good movie thou, but need to be alert and try your best to catch up everything in this movie. It's kind a boring, trust me. 3.5/5 stars

The lighting and graphic, SUPERB ! But the movie is ridiculous because the so-genius creator of the other world. Hahaha but nice movie. 4/5 stars.

I am going back to UKM end of weekend. Excited !! :)

#116 Nothing but the bad boringly whatstuff

Should really forget and find solution that involve only myself. Will do.

and

In need of this two shoes

Hello !

December does not treat me really last week and I am dealing with sort of things right now. I wish next week will come quicker than ever. I am going to start class, get busy and hell forget what has been going on.

Pretty much, I need to care and give time to myself more.

Anyway, I jotted down few things that I would do/want/practice next year.

This kind of list is a must do so at least you will try the whole year to achieve something good, right ?

And give you a clue before I release out the list, on top of my list are manage my financial far lot better. Instead of pleasuring myself with expensive thing, fine-dine food and being very selective over everything, I should just keep simple and think more about how much bucks that I could save if I cut it down.

Other than that, I jotted down few things on my what-I-want list and important dates and what I should do on that certain occasion.

Geez, New Year should be just fine. I wish.

I dream about weird stuff lately, horrific and badddd. It is just a dream but still I woke up breathless and it bothers me. Because of that I slept at 3-4am and woke up around 8am oftenly.

Apart from all of that, I am struggling with making people to understand me and far most that I hate, I always been misunderstood by.

And guys, being someone's boyfriend means that you have to be extra alert because we girls sometime just unintentionally making things complicated. Alert for the signs, we girls sometime ain't practice what so-called straight-forward-conversation.

Ouh and since I get back here, I don't really hang out much. Last time with Govin and Noh at Coffee Bean, we sit there for hours and just talking. Meet up Deo there with his gf as well.

Then hanging out at mall with friends, visiting Govin few days ago because he's been admitted to KPJ because some sort of blood infection. With Kaka for movie My Soul To Take (it has similarity with Nightmare on Elm Street but a bit better)

And yesterday before going back to Putrajaya, chilling out at Old Town with Daus who fetch me and Noh who take an hour break from work.

And thanks to Ana and Anna who helped me a lot yesterday when I was not in a very good state.

My panda ring and tote bag from Forever21

p.s : it will be nice on your off day we go for movie, having nice lunch/dinner and having great conversation while enjoying our mocha or Frappucino outside and enjoying whatever weather it is. I've been wonder.

*lost interest

#115 Good Bye Dean List

Check the result for my exam. Haihhhhhhhhhhhhhh All I can say is GoodBye Dean List. I manage to perform just average :(

Haih !

#114 Stupid "obesiti"

Hello ! Been busy. I already been offered to work but wait for other opportunity since the recent one is quite far away. Btw, few minutes ago, I just involve with minor accident :(

I just realize that in my chatbox got someone who suddenly cursing and I just find out that someone who by the name "obesiti" pretending to be me and tell others that MY BLOG is HER BLOG while ALIPH (who is my friend) is my boyfriend. Come on !! I am not here or anywhere to comment people like this "obesiti" person did. I have better things to do. So to whoever this is, stop it and don't make other people misunderstood me. Urghhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

#113 Sunday breeze

Happy Sunday ! :)

Been busy since I get back here (shopping, chill out and having fun with friends) Hahahaha.

I am currently in Old Town White Coffee with love one.

Tell you what, some people are just ungrateful. Helping when they are in trouble, in return, they just being an asshole. That's the fact.

#112 Shopping, the love (HAHAHAHA)

Heyyy ! Happy holiday. I am back already, not in Ipoh anymore.
Few days ago shopping with my parents, manage to buy all stuff that I needed, 2pair of jeans, shoes and etc etc :p and today, shopping with sisters :)
Buy bag from Forever21, makeups from M.A.C, bracelets and window shopping. Almost buy wedges from Cotton On which I loveeeee so much...geezzz -.-'' (I am glad I ain't buy :p ) Save up money, save up money !
I am alone at home waiting for Noh now to pick up my stuff and have dinner and the rest are going out for birthday party.
Well, I miss my mom and dad already.

Heeee :)

Ouh, last year on december, I spend ridiculous amount of money and I hope it won't happen again this year. Need to save up cash.
Hello December. I always love this month :) Treat me nicely this year.

Last time having early dinner at Johny's with mom and little sister

p.s : thanks sister for various type of chocs :)

#111 Grew up with HP

I have collection of Harry Potter's books. All of it. And there are two set of those HP. 7 with hard cover and 7 with ordinary cover. Hahaha call me crazy and recently I read 'em all back. I grew up with that and you just don't know how crazy I am with HP. Never obsessed with anything other than HP in my whole life. On the other hand, Noh doesn't have a clue about what HP is. Hahahaha

So just now we texting and this is just funny;

N : Nanti baby balik sini naik apa ?
L : Nimbus 2000, go google. Hahaha (Go google if you ain't know, it related to HP)

and haha ingat dia dah google, lepas tu dia boleh text balik ;

N : Keretapi ke ? Pukul berapa sayang naik ?

That time, I just can't help it laughing out loud and tweeting about it. Hahahah what a noob boyfriend :p
I told him to go Google and soon as he google ;

N : Baby jahat ! Malunya siap tanya pukul berapa lagi naik. Cool, mana nak dapat satu ? Hubby nak !!

Hahahahaha
No sayang, I will going back there by car and I will text you as soon as I arrived k ?

#110 Quite life

This is what I cooked when I was in Putrajaya last 2 weeks. Only able to upload it now after I grab it from my bro-in-law's facebook. Anyway, that's a beef lasagna with creamy sauce (my own recipe) and the last one is fettuccine meat sauce. Planned on baking tart eggs before going back to KL back from Ipoh.

Basically, I am enjoying quiet life, I have now. I just love privacy and share all great things with friends. Counting days, few days more before I meet with love and friends. I am looking forward for our holiday for 2days 1night at Lakeview studio suite. Well, hope we all could make it as I think I need holiday.

It is good just chilling, having nice cup of mochachino and nice talks. I am looking forward for it too.

For December, other than holiday, I might need to arrange some plans and be prepare. A lot of thing will happen on December, I bet. I as well think of dying my hair again. Last time was purple and I think of burgandy or purple or strong pink this time. I like Rihanna's current hair colour. Might do colour like that, err.

I need to find perfect jeans, cut my hair and treat myself with something expensive right now.
and I love today's weather. It's lovely isn't ?

Live the life :)

#109 Abandon

I realised that I am too busy with my life till I abandon certain people who used to be important for me, but they didn't make any effort too

#108 Tips for diet (maybe?)

Drooling enough ? Well, I probably the last person who actually deserve to talk about diet since I am a big fan of cream, doughnuts, cakes and fast food. I constantly feel hungry and always need of food (blame the gastric te-heee). But what I had practice for few years actually really works. I did experienced the moment where you feel a very low self-esteem and not confidence with myself. That was few years ago when my weight is almost 58kg at the age of 18. My boyfriend (that time) called me fat and yes, I have this double chin and fat here and there. I don’t know why, right now I can eat everything I want and not gaining weight. Thanks to metabolism (I think) and I am 46 kg now, at the moment. I used to be only 40kg over few months ago but I blame emotions that time and that’s really unhealthy.

I used to eat only once in a day and the menu is bihun soup. Yes. And people will ask how I can survive only with that for one year. To be honest, me myself have no idea back then how I survived with only that. But I do active with sports. Netball and tennis are my favourite.

Well, here what I actually do to make myself in shape. The most important thing actually is control what you eat. Some people just eat whatever they want and cry themselves later when they realize how much weight they’d been putting on already. Control. Eat constantly but in a very small amount, definitely. Remember to eat healthy food as well. Eat more fruits, vegetables and yogurt. And well, drink a lot of water.

If you ask me, I don’t take rice as much as other people do. I eat rice for once or twice in a week. If I take it on my lunch (which I’ve been doing a lot this couple of months), I don’t really eat dinner or nan or megi goring will probably just do. I guess that’s the main key why now I can eat without worrying about my weight. It’s my routine, not something I had to do to keep myself slim so I am not torturing myself anyway. Other than that, I usually eat nan, McDonald (either BigMac, Double Cheese Burger; you name it) and Sushi. In any meal that required me to choose whether chicken or meat, I definitely choose meat because I think it has more protein than fat and carbohydrate. I eat a lot to be honest and gets hungry easily.

Don’t torture yourself just to be skinny. As long as you healthy and you are not affected by low self-esteem and be comfortable with yourself, that’s good enough. Being skinny doesn’t make yourself prettier. Other than you probably can wear whatever you want, the rest didn’t help much.

Well, good luck on losing weight and stay healthy :)

#107 Eat and get fat :)

Raya is awesome ! Well not that raya itself is splendid but been surrounding by family where I don’t get to see often. We didn’t go anywhere. Just staying at home and eat everything. Hahaha I eat a lot and I believe I gained few kilos already. Well, skip that part, doesn’t matter anyway. Last Friday, went to cinema with sister watching Harry Potter. Yeayyyy !! It’s awesome.Saturday, went out with my sister and mom. Accompany mom settling her business and then we off to Jusco, having our early dinner in Johny’s. Do some shopping as well. Weeee 10 more days before I go back, meet my friends and love in Bangi. Can’t wait !!Have a good day, people !




p.s : Just cause a girl hangs out with guys more than other girls doesn’t necessarily mean she’s a slut. Just means she got more bros than hoes

#106 The Sparkle You Bring

Hello guys !!

It's a good day. I just had my lunch. It's a little late. I cooked Nasi Goreng Butter, Mexican Chicken, some sausage and left over fettuccine and lasagna. Hehehe

I am full. Eat it along with my sister and her husband.

Ouhh ouhhh Noh stop by, doing a little surprise. He called and told me that he is infront of my sister's house. Buy me Big Apple Doughnuts and we eat lunch together. *gediksekejap*

and ouh I walk him back to the car park. He said that his car battery running a little low so he asked me to take air bateri in the trunk and surprise :') ada teddy bear and chocs from Famous Amos. Awwwwwww sweet tak ? *gedikgedik*

Gosh ! I was not in a good mood this morning but he just made my day :')

Well, while cooking me and my sister had a little chit chat and you just don't know how much I love catching up with my sister.

Need to pack up going back to Ipoh.

Take care, people !

Selamat Hari Raya Haji :D

#105 Holiday is on

Hello !! and Salam. Random : It's been awhile since I take KTM to go anywhere since I am driving now. Sadly to say, it cost me more more and more than taking KTM anyway.

I safely reach home, my sister's already :)

Since I don't really enjoy sleeping so I am going to eat A LOT at home plus, I can cook whatever I want and I am looking forward for Hari Raya Qurban :)

Thanks Noh helping me with my stuff. So now officially, I am on holiday. Yeayyy !! Malas nak fikir buat apa cuti-cuti ni. Going to spend my holiday by reading. Lots ! and ouh, whoever that know any vacancy out there, do tell me. I think I'm going to work during holiday. Boleh mati kering juga la duduk rumah tak buat apa.

I am crazy about ankle boots and oxford nowadays :)

So happy holiday people and whoever will start their exam soon, GOOD LUCK ! :)