Everytime when I am about to write something, my mind mingle and numerous thoughts come and go in a seconds but yet, I try the best way to write in a matter for it to not really sounds stressful or ‘heavy’ for people’s reading. It’s my blog, yes sure but sometime the reason I write things so people could share feelings and tell me that “we have a mutual feelings or thoughts so don’t you be worry”.
Do you believe that certain people or maybe there’s one particular people can basically turn your life upside down ?
Being a caring person is a curse. You know why ? well, firstly not that I said after all what I’ve done before I’m doing it without sincerity it is just that sometime people does not appreciate it and it cause us lots more trouble than bring us goodness. I always be the mother, in a group of friends or with boyfriend. When he catch cold or fever, medicine, mineral water, 100plus, foods and mostly everything he needed will come along too whenever I visit him. And there’s a time when me and friends driving around for 1 hour and a half to find 24hours clinic around Bandar Baru Bangi and Putrajaya at 3 in the morning for boyfriend. I’ll make sure that my friend will eat and go to the clinic and so far when they need me, I never fail to help. That’s how much I care about people.
It is a curse, true because it brings me anxiety and always-worry feelings. I freak out knowing if something bad happened or will happened and try my best to solve it even it is not my damn problem. My baby girls, always remind me that I always deserve better things in every aspect and as for me I think that I just should stop care too much about people.
At this stage, there’s one unfortunate event that had happened and I just hope that I could help even I honestly know there’s nothing I can do but like I said, it’s a curse.
So here is a little note for you.
“To be at the moment that nothing is good and you have to wait along the time to see changes is however a very unpleasant feelings. It brings anxiety and thoughts come and go on your mind each second. It is tiring but yet nothing you could do unless you just ignore and decide to ruin your life.
Good changes take a lot of responsibility and determination and always bear in mind that you are not alone. There’s always someone that you can talk to; friends, family and gf/bf and they usually could help you. Every pieces of advice should be taken with open heart and try to make a good outcome out of it. When people try to help, let them. Don’t be egoist bastard.
At this moment, I know this one wonderful person who going through a tough time. Always remember that I want to be the good part of you. I am sorry if the way I care about you annoys you. I know that you just love to punch on my face whenever I talk about your plan, remind you of what you should do. It is just me, my nature. I am sorry.
For whatever it is, I want you to really take a step on changing to be a better person, lead a happy life. I believe that you can do it. Everyone believes.
I will always be there to see your downfall, upraise, good and bad moments, through thick and thin.
Allah tak akan menguji umatNya jika Dia tahu umatNya tidak mampu untuk menempuhi sesuatu itu dan atas segala kesulitan yang Dia turunkan, kebaikan juga akan datang menyusuli
And for that, always believe that good things will come afterwards."
p.s : I am actually excited on updating what's happening last weekend but later :)
