#192 Few months

It is the last month of the year and I am happy to finish this year with style.

• I traveled to Bangkok with Anna for 5 days, a week after Eid. It was fun but I want to go there again and explore more...maybe some time next year. 

• I was being so busy with work and having fun at the same time.
• I was having so much fun with people around me and at times, I enjoy to be alone too.

• Not updating so much because I didn't bother to do so, no time therefore I am basically forgot most of the things that had happened.
• Some photoshoot for Florescent. Florescent will participate few bazaar this month.

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• For the past few months has being very meaningful and fruitful for me compare to the first half of this year. Only god knows what had happened, how I feel and how the hell I went through all the good and the bad of whatever it was.
• I learn better about myself.
• Always be the bigger person and look at the bigger picture.
• I develop a very critical obsession over turquoise color, red lipstick and fairy lights 

• I have met a lot of new faces, new people and good people that share a lot of things with me and I get to learn so much about life from them.
• Hoorayyy to all my good friends who graduated already !

• Things are going so good and strong right now.
• I learn to appreciate what I have and what I achieve more instead of complaining or hoping/asking for more that stress me out.
• I started to paint again. Yeayyss !!
• Urbanscapes was super fun and I am working under Yahoo to do a writeup. 

 This ice cream was superrr gooood

 I share my secret here

 #OOTD for the 1st Day of Urbanscapes

 Kanteen served good food during that day and they will be open for business at SS15 Subang, mid December

 We party and party a lot.

 Zizul | Ikhtiman | Hadi | Anna

 Syazwan | Shafiq | Syafiq | Dira 

and some other bunch of people that I hang out with that I didn't get a chance to take picture with

•  Ohhh...did I tell you guys already how obsess am I with fairy lights ? 

• I am planning for a lot of things now. Honestly November by far was the best month for this year and need not for me to tell why. It is just awesome.
• I learn that to let go any anger or grudge is better than keep it inside you. You'll be happier.
• I learn that it is necessary to apply "ignorance is a bliss" in your life and you don't really have to be nice all the time...
• Little things really make me happy. 
• Life lesson....life lesson....everywhere.
• Last but not least, say hello again to purple-violet-ombre hair ! 

Enjoy the last month of this year. Cheers for all the good and bad things throughout the year ! :)

#191 Photoblog : Sweet Escape

It is a good thing that I get to "escape" for awhile. Having a tough May and I manage to outcome everything. Well, August for Bangkok. I am taking my sweet time now waiting for the time to come. 

You know life is funny sometime. You got everything but there's always something might happened and those thing somehow bring a very impact in your life. 

Your Sincerely. 

 

#190 Battle Against Time

It is June already. My god what's the rush ??? Random updates :

1. Just came back from few days of vacation on island. I feel awesome.
2. Have the worst migraine few days ago that I basically call my boyfriend and cry. Bohooo !
3. Bangkok trip on August has been confirmed. Love it !!
4. Going to setup own company by end of this month.
5. I have outcome one of the major obstacle in life. But monitoring my own-self is a must.
6. I began to accept the fact that I move on and grew up to be an adult and some of the things and people, I just have to let go.
7. I just cut my hair, short. Hahaha
8. A lot of planning to be made.
9. Need to stay healthy.
10. I REALLY NEED TO LEARN HOW TO SAVE MONEY #WTFSPEND2KINONLYFEWDAYSICANDIE.

Bye.

#189 The End.

When people start to harass my boyfriend's sister with question about me on ask.fm I think it is time for me to stop blogging about anything. Seriously ? Ask all those stupid question including what car I drive now to her ? Man....you bring stalker/hater or whatever you call yourself to whole new level. Shame on you. Please get a life. A good one. It might be his sister's friends, boyfriend's or mine so I don't know.

I am content and very happy with my life now that I don't need this. Me and the rest couldn't care less about this kind of thing. It is stupid, childish and like I say only applicable for lifeless, unhappy, brainless kind of person. Sorry, I am not sorry. Funny thing that you harass her when you can appear anon here or on my Tumblr. Don't just get someone else involve when you have a problem or want to know about me. For fuck sake.

I might rant a lot, my language is kind of rude and from pictures that I posted, you might think that I am having too much fun and doing all the wrong things. But clearly, you guys know nothing at all about me. Those thing I posted or say on social network represent like 1% of my life so stop judging. If the one that threw her sister's question about me is someone that knew me...clearly you probably some friends that I ditch because I figure I am better off without you or probably someone that just hate me for no reason because honestly, I never make enemy. I may act bitchy but like I say, you know nothing about me. I keep my circle of friends closer to me and maintain a good relationship with them. Well, I find it such a waste of time to explain myself. So I'm going to stop here and have a good life. Hahaha :D

Have a good life, take care.

#188 Up for some real life plan

I am at one of my favourite coffee shop. Boyfriend ditch me for other plan hahahaha. Having a splendid day until I get a phone call that is weeiirrrrddd and pretty much it spoil my day.
Anyway, it has been almost 2 months I'm away from here and things that I felt like pouring here is practically basi already. I turned 24 last March, 29. Got a new car as a present, and some others from friends. Nothing much just another year to indicate I'm 365 days older. I'm having super great past two months actually. I guess that's why I don't really feel like writing. I usually inspired to write when I'm sad. Busy with work, splendid time with friends and boyfriend, ahhh as usual.
Handling (RM) 2 million project for the past 6 months thats what make me busy, get to meet all the important people and stuff. Most importantly, I learn a lot about so many things. Did I ever mention to you that I really love my job that sometime I'll work 12hours a day ? Call me lifeless, but I am working as hard as having fun.
I am still lost thou. Lost in my plan to dominate the world. Too many things to do and so little time. It is not easy to get to where I want to be. Although I love my job, I just have this strong urge to be my own boss, to open up my own business and try to make time to do things that I love the most, art and reading. I don't do both for so long already. It is really sad to come back home to see my art stuff and unread books just neatly stay on my desk. I am trying to do everything step by step now. Start to plan back what I left 2 months ago, which my business and future plan with my business partner. I guess things are really going to be real. Whether using my own money or apply for bank loan, I am not really planning up until there yet because we both roughly counted everything and basically we manage to do stuff with our own money. Well, wish me luck. I am trying to find a collaboration as well between other parties. All is up until discussion and planning. I just can wait for the execution part. Going to move out in 2 months time to a new place which probably in PJ or Subang. I don't mind about driving from Putrajaya-Sunway-Petaling Jaya-KL everyday but coming back home around 2am everyday make me consider to move somewhere much nearer (consider saving mileage car as well).
Anyway, nothing much really to update. I have a constant battle on gaining and losing weight. This week you probably see the fat me and the other week you will see the skinny me. Well, the perks of having high metabolism.
Oh, I'm back being a purple head again. Hahaha.
I can't update too much now since this device seriously fuck me up. It won't scroll up back to let me see what I wrote at the beginning. Have a good day. Oh, and happy election day. Vote for a change, I guess. Haha.

#187 Uncertain stage in life...

I am at the uncertain stage of my life whereby I felt a burden to achieve something in life. This is the age where everyone either further studies to higher level, get married or start to build career. I choose to postpone my Master and build career first. Marriage is not my priority now, not until I’m over 28 years old, I guess. In between of having career, there’s other thing that I would love to do, to achieve, continue what I like/love to do, spend more time with friends before everyone drifting apart because of career and family. My coffee session with friends is not about college, friends or gossips anymore, it is more likely asking each other whether we could make it in demanding world and become who we want to be. This kind of conversation is depressing, really. It is not fun. The talks at the moment was fun, but once you go back and think about it all over again by yourself, you just feel trapped and everything seems blur and mostly you get depressed because if possible you want to see the immediate result of whatever you plan. Everything takes time, fuck. 

I was having this session of talks too many times that I could ever recall with buddies. But last week, I was having this conversation with Najee, for the first time. Clearly we both have our own plan but both want to go into the same direction. We probably too busy planning for our own stuff but at the same time, he’s there for me, support me and indirectly, I feel everything well balance. The pressure of achieve something but having the support that you need. Alhamdulillah.

I am trying to find various way to make whatever that I want to happen, and the pressure is getting higher and stronger. 

I am turning 24 by near end of March and everything worries me now. Don’t picture me sitting in one corner feeling depress and cry myself to sleep. Of course, that’s not what happened, my day usually fine and I’m happy with what’s life offered me now but I can’t avoid having thoughts like, "what the hell do I achieved by 24 ?"

Well, I really need to figure out something (I already figure what I want to do actually) and take action on it. 

Sudden thought: I don’t want flush toy anymore for me to cuddle with at night. I want a cat, real one. (Meh…)

Then again, whatever it is, God knows best. I just have to work on whatever I want now.

#186 A Letter for You, Love

You are kind, supportive and one of the remarkable people I ever met. You are love and you care about something but you just don’t know how to express it sometime. You are harsh, but at times you can become the sweetest person ever. You are so ambitious and someone with a plan. I can see a sparkle in your eyes when you talk about what you like – your desire. I hope you won’t lose it. If it happens, try your damn best to find it again because that’s what makes you so special – your passion.

You are really reserve about everything, but that’s okay because there’s reason why and I think I kind of understand why now. And that’s make everything even more thrill because I never get tired to figure you out although sometime I will lost in the sea of thoughts but that’s okay. I love those feelings. Being negative is fine, because you always presume the worse, and you won’t have high expectations on anything but you always have to believe that we can craft our fate and have faith in God. 

I love days where you just listen to me. I love days where you trying your best to be here for me because I myself have a day where I feel like everything just erroneous. But I end up, being as reserve as you, will shut everything off and cry myself to sleep…alone. I wish we could share a little bit more about our dreams, thoughts, fear and love to each other. I am better…when I’m with you. You enthuse me. We are weird together but it feels just right.

Through thick and thin, I’ll be here. I have faith in in you. I believe that one day you will accomplish all your dreams, you will finally get to do everything that you want. A little faith and patience, you will get there. You are so special that God won’t forget to give you something that you really want to achieve, trust me. 

I’ll see you later.

Sometime it feels like so long, yet it is just for a short while only. Sometime it feels like so short, yet it is almost quite some time already.