#143 Your morning wish

Wanting to take good pictures since yesterday was however, unsuccessful.

Sausage McMuffin with egg and cup of warm coffee really kick off my day and the rainy weather is just perfect :)

and yes, eye-bags and panda eyes forever mineeeee :p

It's been so long. I miss "Good Morning" wish from you when it is practically still morning.

#142 "Mellow May" and"Jolly June" (will be)

Hello ! :)

Do you ever wonder what your future like when you are a teenager, when less burden and only shit things that we all have to deal with ? Ever wonder ? Ahaaaa....that's what I've been thinking about lately. Let's not bother you, reader with kind of that question.

Exam and assignments - that's my priority now.

And I believe that June will start with pretty awesome. Well there's reasons for it.

• My parents will spend their free time, here. And as I don't get to see my parents often which almost 5months now, trust me that I am gonna die if they do not come here. Terribly missing them.
• Most of my friends are free for vacation so that's means I'll join one group of friends to Genting and another one group to PD and weekend's barbecue at friend's house.
• I am dying to cook and having my mom here means that I can cook and gossiping with her and my sister :)
• Like I say on previous entry - Roller skate, gym and rock-climbing (I feel healthy already. HAHA)
• Holga 135 and UWS will be mine ! :)
• New hairdo or at least, a serious treatment. HAHAHA trust me, my hair doesn't look as good as shown in any picture of mine.
• Passport

and the list go on and I dare not to put here because I might be very devastated if I can't get them.

Whatever it is, shopping is a must on June :) and yes, I want to start collecting books again (and read them, of course). Back then when I was a kid, book is my playmate (specifically Enid's), not just some barbie dolls, lego or any toys. I grew up with my dad's politic, biography and islamic books. My own kind of favorite book which some kind like an english literatue, mystery thriller and romance novels. Busy occupy with studies and mostly internet (i-hetchiuuuuu) make my true hobby seems not that true anymore (HAHAHA) Shit -.-

and this is on the very top of my list of books-to-buy - Doctor in the house by Tun M

Currently reading "dua lauk" by Taf Teh & D'iandadi (thanks Amiera gila)

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I want to travel alone to Bali or Bandung and I really meant it (and I wrote several times on entries about this. Ishhh) but however the spirit on going to do that well, was turn off a little bit. Expecting the ticket will be cheaper for me to book, but it is not. Air Asia (KL - Bali) offering a promotion of 2way which I am interested on going on March 1 2012 - March 9 2012 with total of RM 279.00 (including tax and surcharge) while for (KL-Bandung) for RM 273.00 and MAS (KL - Bandung) ; (they didn't provide a flight to Bali) with total of RM 561.00 (including taxes and fees of RM 267.00 wtfff ??). So Air Asia it is but I'll hope the price will be lower by some other time before that date since I have to thing about my renewal of passport, pocket money, etc). Going by next year for the reason of I need to get over of intership first and before my new semester (of my last degree year) begin. With help from friend (Vovinski) who kind enough to explain me everything since he always go there to visit his friends, so it is not a bad plan at all to go alone (I might bring a gun for safety...haha ok, kidding)

Orang kata benda rancang awal-awal ni tak jadi tapi nak rancang lambat-lambat, bukan guna duit mak abah pergi, jadinya tak rancang awal memang tak pergi sampai mampuih.

Heartthrob. I am feeling it now, and freak out if it's not going to happen. *exhale inhale deeply*

In my situation now, I can only afford to go to Bali/Bandung. Friends who now studying in Australia, UK, New Zealand and Japan really want me to come and if I can have all the money that I want, I would love to go there but nak buat camna, mampu pergi Bali/Bandung with my own money ja, korang dah graduate, balik Malaysia pun belum tentu cek jejak kali lagi. *long sigh*

Okay, stop. Won't bragging about this over and over until it is really confirmed :(

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Skipping that big dream of mine, I need to focus more on things that really matter now. This few days, I've been enjoying days all by myself. I mean, stay in my room, read/watch things that I like, do some writing, drawings and just keep myself lazy. I am free from things and I even postpone assignments of mine. Page for this week on my planner is clean from any notes, reminder or appointments. Hihi bliss :)

Nevertheless to say, I need to hold on with studies until June 20 then I'm no-need-to-study-student and will only facing notes/assignments back around April 2012. Wooo !

Never failed to make me laugh or smile. Catnapped HAHAHA seriously ?

It end of May already. Overall, May treating me good. I am living quite a plain days which I enjoy apart from some crazy days. I hope June will treat me really good and I am sure it will. Yeayyy !

Have a good day, people :)

p.s : my god, I fix this entry countless time. Re-read it again and again and keep noticing grammar, spelling mistake. wtf. Haha sorry.

I won't ask whys

And i try not to cry

I'll always be by your side

Even when you're down and out

#141 Plain Sunday

Hello !

I woke up today, straight away taking my Sony and yes, listening to some music that absolutely will make me function better.

Change little things on the blog (only if you realized it), read some fashion magazines, finish my artwork and checking every possible things I can check on the internet (Facebook, emails, twitter, tumblr, etc)

After a quite busy week, I rather my Sunday to be plain. Just plain and yet, I enjoy every minutes of it. A date with all the gadgets on bed. Bliss. And only will go out tonight for final EPL.

3weeks of short semester and I already need to work on 3final project for this semester and midterm exam this Friday. Oooohhh love my life, not.

Still, I've got time for myself and get stressed over something else (which I weirdly enjoyed) other than my studies. Exercising, hang out and do things that make me laugh so hard with friends. Gym, rock-climbing and roller skating are on my list-to-do next month. I am fully booked for other activities on weekend until end of this month.

As usual, there's certain little things bothering my mind.

and again, I am stumble. Too many things to say, but too hard to express it.

Last but not least, Noh Hafizri - thanks for being my knight. You've been very helpful this few days :)

Have a good day !

#140 Time extend

Last weekend is just awesome. Meet up with Ayie, Shiro, Ob and some new people. Attending Indie Fest at Pavillion and hanging out with people I rarely have a chance to chill out with.

Well Ayie, it’s been more than a year right since our last crazy hang out ?

Being me this few days were hard, well shall I say all the time were hard ? and I have reasons to make such statement.

Spoiled brat, it’s me and cliché type of people; nothing is good enough.

I am not talking about how I want more money because right now, I have more than enough. I am talking about how I wish I had more time, more opportunity to do things that I want to do. By the words, comes with long list of what I just love to do and how I am going to spend my time.

I want to do this and that and ouh yes, that as well. And ouh not to forget, that particular things also and….yes, the list goes by.How weird it is when people rather do nothing when they got time and me being the vice versa. I feel like there’s more to do and accomplish. And by that, not only do that things but also succeed on every each of it.So to fulfil things on my list, I need more time.And for that, I need to be patient because I really believe that things will get so much better in these few months.

THIS. On my list which nearly impossible for me to fulfill

I never hate myself but being ambitious and high-spirited, that’s making me hate myself a little bit. Why can’t I just stop trying to find things to do, wondering about it and always have this crazy idea to do certain things ?
Or maybe I just need to stop thinking, for awhile.

And right now, as well, I feel like isolating myself from everyone, EVERYONE.

The saddest part is, I am having so many questions and conflict with myself, not with other people. Life would be much easier if I can shut it down. However, apart from all of this, I am blessed and happy with life. It is just, my thoughts over things that I would love to accomplish :)

and for that, shopping is one of the treatment. HAHAHAHA, not -.-

Hmmmmmm.....mindfuck !

Well said, do what you love and fuck the rest :)

#139 Off record

Let's pretend

Everything good as new

We have no things to deal with

We are fine and incredibly in love

Let's pretend

We never want to walk away

We misses each other so much

We want to hold each other's arm

We are good at pretending

We keep looking on for the broken pieces

We never want to believe

There's something is wrong

We have to let it go away

Some writing and melody that I've been working on....

#138 Fully occupy in life

Exam was over last week and now I am already in my 3rd semester. Awesome, not. 3 subjects, 6 hours class with only 1 hour gap in between. Well, at least it gives me enough time to take lunch. This will happen for 4 days in a week and in 2 months. Believe or not, projects, assignment and mid term exam will happen in 5 weeks. *die*

Last week after exam was full with having fun; watch Fast5 the sneak preview with the boys in OU and watching football and chilling as usual at our favourite spot for straight 5 nights ! Hahaha. Yesterday I met with Shiro and having dinner together. It is just awesome to meet your friend who you didn’t get a chance to hang out with oftenly .

Anyway, I am not in my college anymore but staying at different college. Thanks to Ruzain, Noh and Govin because helping me out at 2am in the morning with my stuff. The room are better, bigger and the shower is just the best! hahaha and most of my coursemate and people that I am okay with are staying here too. The only thing is me and my roommate didn’t actually talk and do the ‘ice-breaking’ thing. I basically do my own thing and most of the time, sleep or going out.

Weird thing, as much as I love my hair, I can’t stop thinking about chop it off. Good that last week I can’t find my scissors because there’s one moment I just feel like chopping it off all by myself without even thinking how it will looks like as long as it is short. Need to do something, pronto.

As much as I want to update my blog and how eager I can be to tell all the stories here but when the time come, I just wordless and wrote all the basic blablabla boring thing only. Hahahaha Well have fun people on your semester’s break. Take care :)