#137 Mingling on mind

Hello ! Two papers and one final presentation to go and then I will have some time off for myself. I will read other blogs, which I know I rarely do. I will follow some inspired blog as well and fix this blog.

It has been a year since I’ve done nothing with it.

Well, I am not always here, I rarely jotted down my thoughts or tell things here lately.

manque d'inspiration…

But surely I will. I have lots of pending entry about my thoughts. Well, if that’s matter to you...all.

Being a student is never firm yet never be easy and all the other responsibility clench all around you never make things laidback and yes, there’s come all the emotions, friendship and even material supports/needs that making everything even harder.

I am the kind of person who will not force myself to do stuff. I do things when I feel inspired or I feel the need to. But that was the problem. List of things to do are uphill.

Nevertheless to say, I feel uninspired to do anything.

I feel a little mess up about life and wondering how it’s going to be from May until August. Short semester, job, business and other stuff. Then comes September which I will be going for internship and then on April next year will be the last semester of my degree studies, hope so.

Everything just derives around my mind.I spend two hours thinking about all of this early of today and suddenly I just like, you know what? fuck off with all that. I always get / achieve what I want so there’s no reason for me to feel this way.

I don’t need to insister sur.

This is fascinating, isn't ?

My mind is bloated with unimportant stuff and myself just got caught in it. It is not a problem but blame complicated me, I stupidly lingering it all on mind.

Let's jotted it down here. I need some new shoes, blablabla, UWS for BF, blablablablabla, something that I couldn't tell here, blablablablablabla, my internship application, some thoughts and blah !

Turns out nothing it's nothing much but still it bothers me. Hmmmphh.

Well said :)

Anyway, good luck for you guys' exams and have a good life. Take care ! :)

#136 Cool enough ?

I don't need cool people to be around with to make my self feel...cooler ? Yeap :) - Lubby N. Alle

I am sorry that most people try so hard to fit in, try so hard to get recognize, try so hard to gain followers on twitter, tumblr, blog and approve everyone on facebook. I know, it's your choice but do you really want that kind of attention ? Really ?

I let people invade my privacy once. Yeap, it is one hell of attention that you think you want but at the end you just want nobody to recognize you. You want to be able to go to mall or anywhere without people look at you and says they know you. You just want to feel comfortable around crowd without doubting if they ever talk behind your back. Seriously.

I am no artist or no public figure but trust me, normal people do get attention like that. I am way than pretty either but for some reason that I don't even understand, I get that kind of attention and trust me I don't enjoy that.

So when people says she's cool or he's cool just because he's being with other cool kids - pretty, handsome, rich, musician or etc I'll say, "that's pathetic."

Been there, done that.

I see talented people as cool people, not just some pretty, handsome, rich, good-for-nothing kids.

But sometime, they get carried away and become arrogant, boast. *sigh*

It's my thoughts. Don't bother.

#135 PD Trip, Surprise party and lots.

Goodbye March and Hello April ! :)

Owe story from last entry.

Going for Hot Air Balloon Festival but wrong timing, no balloon was up in the air : (

So me and my friends went to PD to shoot our projects there. Going with 2 other groups. Works, swimming and watching sunset. It was fun and yes, sunburn -.-''

p.s : No, Noh is not studying in my U and obviously not in my class. He taking Civil Engineering in other U :) he accompany me :)

Lookout Point Ampang is one of my favourite place. Sudden plan with Noh and we sit there for hours waiting for sunset. Someone take a vow and promises things while watching sunset :')

March 28 - My friends and Noh himself was busy that day and Ain want to take me out for dinner that day. I termendously sad because the day before my birthday, everyone seems busy. Going to the Pizza Hut Kajang with Ain and while I am too caught up with my UberSocial (Twitter) on Blackberry, all of them came out with flowers and cake and sing a birthday song! Noh, Ain, Govin, Naveen, Aker, Kaka, Ruzain, Wan, Nadia, Ben, Zimah, Zik, Amin and Mat was there to surprise me. Thanks guys :') Well, it is a little too early but who cares anyway ? On my exact birthday March 29, nothing much going on because I have things to do and we all are busy doing our own things. Something happened that night, which I do not want to think about anymore :(

But anyway, thanks for all the birthday wishes via FB, Twitter, Sms-es, BBM and calls. Much appreciated ! :)

P.s : I am too touched to take a picture of me and friends. Hahahaha

Pretty much, my March was super busy but fun,fun,fun. Hahaha yes and April will be stressful obviously with exam and stuff. Next week will probably going for trip to Pangkor as birthday present from my Mum. Heeee :)

Take care guys. Have a nice April :)