#157 Moving on and grow up

It’s only yesterday I crisscross again the cost for ticket flight and I’ve got plan to purchase it by this week since I save enough money by now. But all of sudden, I told myself that I could postpone, maybe not next year on January or February, maybe before I get marry or perhaps after get a stable job. I try to convince myself on that. Maybe, but not any time soon. Yes, I am talking about my nearly one year plan to go to Bali. I blameworthiness the PMS for this sudden decision which I think is my final decision at least for another 6months. Just not now or next year. It’s such a nuisance.

Internship was fine. Now I know how sadistic and merciless it is to wake up in the morning and knowing that you have to go over and done with learning and working process from 8.30am-5.30pm. True what everyone said, studying way much better. Being the only girl (the other kakak come once in awhile only) and intern here is well, let say I have no word to designate it. It is just a little bit awkward being in environment of all guys who are superbly good on programming and developing system. Lucky I am working at MTDC which very near to my best friend, Annabeth. At least I get to get out for an hour to chill with her and meet up after work.

Life is currently fully engaged with happy things. I am blessed. Alhamdulillah.

As much as I would like to say that breaking up is fine for me (especially it's a mutual decision), it is actually true until the ex create drama by tweeting and call me names. It does not hurt but yet offended me as I am moving on pretty well and try my best to keep the friendship. But now, I just don’t feel like anything worth to hold on to anymore. Lost one person who does not really contribute much in my life is nothing but fine. But thanks, I do realize so many things and I can look at the past (if I want to) and instead of cry, I would laugh.

Anyway, having a lot of good friends which from the different gender doesn’t make someone as a bitch. Grow up, please.

As usual, too many interesting things happened. Meet up with new people, going to new places, experience new things, but new stuff, and make/cross to do/buy list. Lots. I love how the life’s work right now.

Till then, take care, people !

#156 Must go on

I miss writing. Put my thoughts and every sagacity that I can find in my mind into writing. And I feel that now is the finest time to do as I have pretty much lots to round about.

How’s Raya for everyone? To be honest, this is the lame(st) Raya for me and my family. The best part is when I get to meet up with everyone, gather around at my parent’s home, spending more time with my sisters and brother catching up, spending more time listen to my mom’s nagging (Hahahaha) and spending more time being daddy’s girl. And yes, I am being a little productive by visiting my granny twice and meet up with few friends there. And the worst part is tradition to visit my relatives seems not applicable anymore, I don’t know why.

What I love the most about being away from my typical life is that I get to miss things that I usually do, thinking about people I usually met and for this holiday, I received one parcel that for me, the sweetest someone may possibly do for me when being far-off from me.

Being single never been this pleased for me. It is really odd that I am not that devastated over the break up compare to previous relationship(s). I know that I make a right decision to give myself more time and space for a lot of great things to happen and these three weeks, no one can envisage what great things that happened to me. I am blessed, Alhamdulillah.

Anyway, do you know in order for your life to be improved (other than you yourself try to work things out) is to be around positive people, people that mak e you happy and talk to? For that, I must actually thank a lot of people for giving me a better life, the great one. Right now, money comes along just fine, my life is organized perfectly the way I want, I am looking after people who at the same time, looking after me as well in a very warm way and ahhh too many to tell.

And today is the second day of internship. I’ve been doing nothing and that is why I’m blogging to make myself look ermm more occupying (hahahaha). The work environment is just fine and too soon to tell anything now.

Now, I am finally can take a fine breathe, September is here and lots of plan and more great things to come. For now, I have only two things that really matters to me, work and existence. But existence means every single connection I’ve made with people. Ouh ya, and can’t wait for a lot of meet ups with friends, seniors and lover.

Too many too tell actually but it’s my lunch time and someone waiting for me now. Have fun, take care guys J