I remember that we started our first dance and it continues with several dates and we get serious and declaring on July 2010. It was quick but when does love being measure by the time you devote with your love one ? Then it leads to dates that happened from night until dawn, food galore and many other stuff, I must said what couple usually did. Somehow, things changed. Disloyal, dishonest and betrayal are making fun of us and we try our best to hold on. We forgive each other and we try so hard to make us happy, as couple. Things changed. It usually changed and there we are from having non-stop conversation to being so quite with each other. We barely speak, hardly laugh and the only thing we are good at that moment is pretending things are okay, try so hard and argue about things. Deep down inside, we were still strongly in love with each other. But things happened and we lose our battle. As we breaking up, it was 1 year and 25 days of being together. We learn things, I learned to be better and it has made me stronger than ever. We make a mutual decision and here we are not having each other as boyfriend and girlfriend but remain friends. At the moment, this is the best to do. Both of us being busy and other priority are waiting. For some reasons, we are better as friends, for now. Some part of what happened is just sad but I dare to say it is a good decision that now, we both can see things contrarily and meet up with new individuals and learn things. It is certainly not a gloomy thing, it just something we should take as lesson. It’s harder than we both thought but we always going to be okay. But of course, all the memories will always be remembered.
Anyhow, splitting up is not the reason why I am being so discreet and update less on my blog. It is just, same reason, I rather being lazy on bed or going out with friends and nothing much to update. People might think I am sad or anything but I am not. Yes, breaking up is something that I try to avoid but things happened and you just have to keep move on and be happy.
Ramadhan goes really well. After 5years, I get to celebrate my first Ramadhan with my parents. Last year I didn’t get a chance to Iftar with my parents at all. Been to Ipoh for first week of Ramadhan and I get back to Putrajaya to settle some stuff and I am going back to Ipoh soon and celebrate Raya with family, of course. In a little while, I will go for internship which kind of thrilled and daunting at the same time.
I have experienced few great things since last month. And I just couldn’t ask for more. Being with some people, somehow can light up your days. Thank you.
One thing that just piss me off is that, this one person who can't get a life and messed up with mine. Can you just forget about what happened almost 2 years ago ? You really can't have enough of me, don't you ? You really need a life man, or at least a girlfriend to deal with your shit so you stop messing with others. Same goes to your beloved not-related-biologically sister. It is really fascinating on how this both people couldn't stop gossiping silly thing about me. Awwwwwww :)
Someone ask me last week, how I want my future to be but fascinatingly being me who always have a plan for things, actually couldn’t response to that. Being where I am now, it’s too confusing and difficult to make decisions about life. I might have some things figure out but the rest remain undecided. Somehow, I couldn’t wait to graduate, secure my job and start planning again. I take a long pause, sigh but then I came out with an answer that “I want to be everything so I want to start doing things that I love and see how far it could take me.”
Right now, I am living a normal life. Socialize with people, being sluggish and create scenes on my mind. That’s my routine other than keeping myself fit and happy.
Say no more.
Have a good day. Happy Ramadhan and Eid, people !
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